Friday, April 10, 2015

The Plane is my Passenger

 The plane is a my passenger from here to there with small flutters of possibility.   I write as if it were to tell a story but the story is stuck behind the noise of anxiety.  The fear of failures, real and imagined, pressing against my mind.   An impossible place of so many thoughts in so many directions.  Job stress.  Home stress.  Travel stress.  All the stress of too much to consider and too much to do.

The poetry magazine article on color slowly settling in.   So many ideas of expression and so many poems/poets cited/quoted.   A theory of color and a coloring of the theory to give such brightness to language.  Dorothy Lasky.  Didn’t Dodie in part use this article or at least the idea of the article for an exercise.  The red one or the green one or any of the colored ones?   Colored ones…a colorful term out of fashion for a distinction of race in a time of overt racial tensions.   A world without color.  A world of black and white.  A world where shade and shadow are enough to answer the questions of polite politics.

This writing on the plane is uncomfortable.  The laptop too high.   My wrists all twisted into a knotty tunnel of discomfort.  I persist fearing an injury and enjoying the thinking and writing and being present with these two activities.  I wonder how Dodie’s will be?  I am sorry to have missed so much and even sorrier to miss more.

Careful what you wish for.


This was the year of getting it done.   It has become the year of turmoil and upheaval. 

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